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26 September 2008 @ 11:44 am
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Everything was perfect,
everything was so arranged.
My life was in order
…until you came.

I never planned for you
to come into my life;
to fill my mind,
my thoughts;
to make your place in my heart,
to stir my soul.
...you just did.
One minute, I never knew
what love was.
And now…

I understand it too much.

I understand the distinct feelings
of happiness,
of inspiration,
of hurt.
You taught me all that
and so much more.
You opened my heart,
brightened up my senses;
made a claim, a mark
in my life.
It would have been okay;
perfect, even,
if you stayed.
…but you didn’t.

You couldn’t.

You left
just as suddenly as you came.
Just as silently.
Just as strongly.
You left because
you had your reasons;
reasons that
I wasn’t a part of.
Couldn’t be a part of.

You left me alone.

You had a past,
one you could never share;
not with me.
It’s not that
I wouldn’t understand
when in fact, I would.
It’s just that, for you

…I will never be enough.

You may have touched my heart
fully, deeply...
but I don’t think
I have touched yours.
You wouldn’t let me.
You stayed away, and you left
because you had to;
you needed to.
Unlike me,
you couldn’t open your heart.
You couldn’t share it.

Not with me.

Because someone else
already owns it;
someone else
already has claims on it.
I understand that.
I do.
I understand
that I could never be that someone;
I could never be
the one.
I understand.
But it hurts still.
Yes...it always will;
knowing that
I could never measure up.
Knowing that
although you’ll never be mine

…I’ll be loving you still.

I may not have lost myself
while loving you...
but I sure as hell
have been scarred inside;
and I wonder…
will this ever be over?

I don’t know.

And right now

...maybe it’s better that I don’t.

 
 
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dawnna/dawn/coolgirl: sexy chick!dawnie_gurl on September 26th, 2008 11:13 am (UTC)
tin, i love this.

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when did you write it?
★ Eunhyuk's BBcutecrazyice on September 26th, 2008 01:56 pm (UTC)
Just last night. Heh, I was feeling very alert. :p
dawnna/dawn/coolgirl: sexy chick!dawnie_gurl on September 26th, 2008 04:43 pm (UTC)
nice. i read the other comment. it's for brigit's flame?

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good luck with that! so you're finally joining?
★ Eunhyuk's BB: stuffed sakuracutecrazyice on September 26th, 2008 05:08 pm (UTC)
Heh, yeah. I decided to give it a try. :p
dawnna/dawn/coolgirldawnie_gurl on September 27th, 2008 11:51 am (UTC)
cool.

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good luck, tin.
★ Eunhyuk's BBcutecrazyice on September 27th, 2008 12:14 pm (UTC)
Thanks, Dawn! :)
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★ Eunhyuk's BBcutecrazyice on September 26th, 2008 04:03 pm (UTC)
Heh, thanks. I'm new to the poem-making thing, so I'm glad you liked it, even with the little flaws. :)
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★ Eunhyuk's BBcutecrazyice on September 27th, 2008 04:38 am (UTC)
Thanks! :)
(Anonymous) on September 28th, 2008 11:56 am (UTC)
Very nice. You should write more.
★ Eunhyuk's BBcutecrazyice on September 28th, 2008 11:58 am (UTC)
Thank you! :)
cedarwolfsinger: head shot 1cedarwolfsinger on October 1st, 2008 07:06 pm (UTC)
Nice job! I don't remember seeing your work here before -- if you are new here -- welcome! If I just missed you, I'm sorry, and I'll be looking for your work going forward.
★ Eunhyuk's BB: spring girlcutecrazyice on October 2nd, 2008 01:25 am (UTC)
Hi! Actually, this is my first entry ever in Brigit's flame. Heh, I'm new here. So, thanks for the welcome! And I'm glad you like it. :)
dreamy_idealistdreamy_idealist on October 3rd, 2008 09:19 pm (UTC)
This is really nice, so meaningful with simple words. Well done!
★ Eunhyuk's BB: a flower for youcutecrazyice on October 4th, 2008 11:27 am (UTC)
Thank you, glad you thought so. :)
Aquarius Galuxyaquarius_galuxy on October 17th, 2008 06:31 am (UTC)
=o Hey, you're on Brigit's Flame too!
★ Eunhyuk's BB: tulip by iconsbywongcutecrazyice on October 17th, 2008 12:21 pm (UTC)
Heh, yeah. New member.

You're from fanfiction, too! :)
Aquarius Galuxyaquarius_galuxy on October 17th, 2008 01:00 pm (UTC)
=D I am, but I haven't been writing for ages. Which fandoms do you write for? =D
★ Eunhyuk's BB: chess pieces by iconsbywongcutecrazyice on October 17th, 2008 01:07 pm (UTC)
Lol, only Naruto so far! But heh, I read other fandoms as well. What about you?

...care to be lj friends? :)
Aquarius Galuxyaquarius_galuxy on October 17th, 2008 01:54 pm (UTC)
=o any particular pairings in Naruto? I write/used to write Beyblade, Get Backers, Teen Titans and X-Men.. and the occasional smutfic for random fandoms. o-o But I read other fandoms too. =D

I'd love to! =D I comment on entries a lot, even when I have mountains of homework to do. T_T
★ Eunhyuk's BB: lovely girl and blue (by Matusciac Alex)cutecrazyice on October 17th, 2008 02:03 pm (UTC)
Well...I'm a big Sakura fan, so I support almost all Sakura shippings. Heh. I mostly write KakaSaku and SasuSaku, but I'm open to anything.

How about you? What pairings in your fandoms to you ship?
Aquarius Galuxyaquarius_galuxy on October 17th, 2008 02:10 pm (UTC)
Of the two, I prefer SasuSaku, though I don't go out of my way for them. =P I really like ShikaTema, and AsumaKurenai (though I haven't actually read anything about them yet), and NaruHina is influenced by a good friend of mine, and reinforced by the bf.

Aside from that.. Ray/Mariah from Beyblade, my first OTP, and Kazuki/Juubei from Get Backers, my second OTP. =P Kagami/Himiko and Shido/Madoka from Get Backers as well..

Beast Boy/Raven and Starfire/Robin in Teen Titans, and Bobby/Rogue in X-Men (though it's influenced by the movies). Lupin/Tonks in Harry Potter... Mwu/Murrue in Gundam Seed, Pailong/Tao Jun in Shaman King, Ryo/Rika in Digimon Tamers.... the list goes on and on, I've listed them in my profile. XD

Which pairings do you ship?
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kitkatmalo: Cute Viewkitkatmalo on October 25th, 2008 01:07 pm (UTC)
So simple poem. But I like the emotions. ^_^
★ Eunhyuk's BB: harry pottercutecrazyice on October 25th, 2008 03:20 pm (UTC)
Aww, thanks! :)